Avoiding one question only leads to answering another, or so it is in my case. How do I start, at the beginning as I guess this is a continuation of the playground. Healing & scars, that's the focus. How do you deal with the scars, how do you heal the wounds? Are you ready, because this is about everything from science to religion, from spirituality to humanity.
With Respect to all religions, they all teach a set of rules the basis of good and bad. Sins & Good Deeds, Love & Hate. Now in Islam (we're going to go back & forth, connect the dots at your own time) it is believed that the faithful will suffer in the real world in order to enter Heaven & not set foot in Hell (or decrease their duration in Hell, however you see fit).
With that in mind, think of the struggle, the balance we try to keep between our desire to be good and the temptations of the real world. It is how we grow isn't it though? Where is growth without the experience, the turbulence, the insecurities, the understanding, the acceptance and finally overcoming and moving on to the next life lesson.
Let's go back to faith, the guilt and shame associated with each wrong doing, small or large is a measure of our faith. Just as how the pain we experience when losing a loved one is a measure of our love for them. How we choose to absolve the pain, guilt or shame is a measure of both our faith and growth. Hope your still with me.
Here's the plot twist, if we were to act on the knowledge that suffering in this life is a direct measure of God's mercy for the afterlife then we must also act on the knowledge that the pain or negative emotions we experience are our own personal Hell, on earth.
Resolving this hell on earth can only be done with faith. It is just a lesson and if we take accountability and hold on to our faith then our personal hell resolves and we are once again centered. This occurs from love, with love and through love. And what is God but love.
Once centered, it is easier to see Heaven through Peace. If you truly love, then you are at peace with yourself and cannot help but wish everyone to experience love and therefore ultimately peace. It comes as no surprise and every surprise to realize that the wounds that are too deep, that have engraved and etched themselves into our heart will relate to the pain of the world. Which leads us to lashing out. At times with no direction, in fury, at times hurting not just ourselves but others in the process. But if we focused on the ultimate goal, the hereafter, the Heaven, the Paradise call it what you may; if we keep that focus then it becomes familiar to us almost habit to return to it by shedding the weight of our negative and self-created hell to return to our peaceful state of mind back on track to that awaited hereafter.
And every answer becomes available to you, to help you find the love by overcoming hate, shame, guilt and what deters us from our faith. Now here's the faithful humanitarian aspect, the pain that we experience is often dulled by comparing ourselves to those who are less fortunate. Whatever we experience could not possibly relate to another who is war torn, starved, unsheltered, oppressed or treated inhumanely. Though this may dull our own personal pain, through empathy we have attached ourselves to committing absolving their hell as well as ours. So we tie ourselves, or our hopes, or our dreams, or our ambitions to creating a better world not just for us but for all those that suffer around us. Pure love is both selfish and selfless in the sense that the gain of others is also our gain. Just as their pain is our pain.
I guess all this leads us to another question or set of questions, what is the measure of your love, your compassion, your empathy, your desire to find peace? What is your focus going to lead you to accomplish? What will you allow to flourish from your pain?
Think of all the accomplishments of those before us and those with us. What have we created in our lives to help ourselves and others? However you look at it we are linked, our actions affect those around us repeatedly. Now it isn't far stretched to look around you and see the products (literally) of others and how they affect our daily lives, what you choose to work on and invest in be it science, technology, medicine, engineering, business, marketing, fashion or any other field will last. And if it doesn't last it evolves for the better.
My own imperfections can be pointed out easily but I do not let them define me, instead I use them as a catalyst for positive change. And it's a work in progress, as long as I breath I will keep going through these cycles or personal evolution's in the hope that I do enough for that awaited promise. I hope you made it this far as I'm aware that I over share, but if you look at the Dream Wall somewhere on it you can see my dream. As well as the dreams of others.
Sharing my experiences might help someone with theirs and I realize I owe a lot to those that keep me grounded, so this is for anyone that has stood by me through good and bad. This is also for those that I might have hurt, discomforted, crowded, lashed out at or behaved in any way inappropriately. Forgive me, I often get so caught up in trying to find an answer that I do not pay as much attention as I should to my surroundings.
So that's the last piece of this puzzle, whatever puzzle that comes next in life I'm sure will benefit from the accumulation of experiences that have lead me to this.